I call it this because this is exactly what it feels like. It feels like this past four weeks, I have been trapped in a nightmare, with a new problem appearing everyday out of the blue, working it's way into the web of insanity that me and Craig are stuck in.
Anyway i thought well i might as well write down what has happened so that perhaps in time i will be able to look back at what has happened and laugh.....hmm possibly we will see though. :s
I know you might not be interested, i mean i dunno really although my life is getting pretty heated up at the moment, life is crazy i tell ya
Well here goes:
First I think a little background knowledge is needed of the kind of relationship that me and my ex boyfriend Andy had. Like most relationships, at first life was pure bliss. And then i got to know him. He asked me to go on a diet, and i did, still loving him. He then wanted me to become a vegetarian, so i did and i still loved him. But when i started eating meat again (i love meat) he went all weird and psycho on me, crying and shouting at me for being cruel. (now it was worse than it actually sounds). You see Andy has these major issues, he is very controlling and possessive, but i loved him so much i thought i could cope. When he asked me to stay in to talk to him on the phone every night instead of seeing my friends, i did. I would have done anything for him. Then it started to get worse. When we got to university, he started to check the number of bread slices i had left in the kitchen to see if i had eaten any, he also checked the freezer and my rubbish bin to see if there were any empty chocolate wrappers. It was just getting worse, and then the emotional abuse started, he would deny that he did those things and tell me that he was doing nothing wrong, except he was awful when i told him i didn't want to go to the gym that day. He started going all strange, making me feel guilty for not going. Also the amount of times i was told how much fat and calories was in a certain food was unbelievable.
So that was my boyfriend, at the beginning of summer, things got crazy and my dad was ready for beating this guy up for fucking my head up and my body. But i still toook him back.....what a fool i was. I still loved him......but that love slowly went away over the next few months.
And then we come to the weeks in october. We started back at university at the beginning of october. I started to hang around with my friend Chloe more and her boyfriend. Me and her boyfriend ( was craig at the time) began to make music together, he played guitar and i sang. After a while we became very close, and we both noticed that there was something between us. That brings us to halloween, it was that night that i had invited my friend Chloe, Craig, my sister Steph and my flatmates (including andy) round for a night of drinking and eating cake. My alcoholic punch went down very well, with Craig ending up being extremely drunk lol. This resulted in me and him doing a practice upstairs in my room, which turned out with us kissing each other. I did feel really guilty about the whole thing and suggested that we didn't do it again. So the night ended and saturday came. But Craig wanted to come round again that afternoon, so he did, and we kisses again. He explained that he couldn't stop thinking about me and that he wanted to go out with me. I was shocked but wonderfully surprised......was good.
So we were going to keep it a secret, but then sunday morning came and Craig admitted everything to his girlfriend, and my friend Chloe. He left her to go see his brother on campus, so i met up with him. We both decided that we wanted to be together and so we would split up with our partners. And so we did, though this was not an easy task. Andy continued to mess around with my head and i ended up going home to be with my family, unable to cope. After some time, i came back to uni and started to date Craig, but there were more problems to come. Andy began to play with my head even further, Craig ended up punching him one, resulting in Andy reporting him to the police. But no action was going to be taken so we were ok, or so we thought.
Then we got calls from Chloe in the middle of the night, drunken, abusive phone calls......oh the joy. Craig had to go running to sort her out, she was in a terrible state. Then i got Andy telling me how he was going to commit suicide.....and everything was all my fault.
I managed to get him to his senses eventually.
Now we're talking first week of november, and Chloe and Andy met up with each other to console each other mainly. BUt when Andy returned, he told me how Craig had lied to everyone saying that i was pursuing him etc. I was gutted, i couldn't stop crying. I trusted Andy was telling the truth, as he wouldn't want to hurt me. So i called Craig telling him how upset i was and he admitted that he had told Chloe the lies so that she wouldn't get upset. But i was unsure again.....i went home again to try and see some sense out of the situation.
I returned home clear minded and decided everything would be ok. Me and Andy agreed to be friends, and we spent a couple of evenings out together. We were also supposed to be seeing Muse together. But that seemed like a long wayyyyy off. First i had to meet Craig's parents, so me, Craig and his brother troddled off down to Bradford and lo and behold Craig's brother had forgotten his keys, so we had to stay in an expensive hotel wahey graet stuff. It wouldn't be so bad if i actually HAD the money but noooo course i aint got it! Anyway we got through that and another problem surfaced.....Craig's brother began to be attracted to me and wanted me to go for a beer with him constantly. Everytime we all went out together, he got drunk and kept trying it on with me, one time he ended up in tears. It was not pretty........Craig was beginning to get worried.
But we got through all that and thought things can only get better right? No wrong, the police were looking for Craig about the fight......oh shit We thought that maybe Andy was lying about this as he appeared to be lying about a lot of things, telling Craig how i'd slept with his brother etc. He wanted to split us up.
So anyway i take Craig to muse instead and all is good. Me and Craig travel up to his friends in Sundeland as we go to watch Iron Maiden. Yesterday as we travelled back, we broke down on an A road......excellent. Craig's breakdown membership had expired, but the bastards had forgotten to tell him so that was just great. We had to wait about 4 hours for Craig's friend, so we got a little bit typsy in the local pub.....always a good idea
We eventually got home ok but the car is dead in some village somewhere lol. Just when you thought nothing could get worse.......
it does! The police called us this morning to talk to Craig, but luckily he just needed to sign some agreement that it was going to be written off. All we need is to be taken to court :s
So i reckon that's about it, there's probably stuff i've missed out.....i'll post it if i can remember, so much has happened it's hard to remember.........
that has been the activity of my life during the past 4-5 weeks or so.....yay! Let's hope things get less crazy and more boring and normal lol
Anyway i thought well i might as well write down what has happened so that perhaps in time i will be able to look back at what has happened and laugh.....hmm possibly we will see though. :s
I know you might not be interested, i mean i dunno really although my life is getting pretty heated up at the moment, life is crazy i tell ya
Well here goes:
First I think a little background knowledge is needed of the kind of relationship that me and my ex boyfriend Andy had. Like most relationships, at first life was pure bliss. And then i got to know him. He asked me to go on a diet, and i did, still loving him. He then wanted me to become a vegetarian, so i did and i still loved him. But when i started eating meat again (i love meat) he went all weird and psycho on me, crying and shouting at me for being cruel. (now it was worse than it actually sounds). You see Andy has these major issues, he is very controlling and possessive, but i loved him so much i thought i could cope. When he asked me to stay in to talk to him on the phone every night instead of seeing my friends, i did. I would have done anything for him. Then it started to get worse. When we got to university, he started to check the number of bread slices i had left in the kitchen to see if i had eaten any, he also checked the freezer and my rubbish bin to see if there were any empty chocolate wrappers. It was just getting worse, and then the emotional abuse started, he would deny that he did those things and tell me that he was doing nothing wrong, except he was awful when i told him i didn't want to go to the gym that day. He started going all strange, making me feel guilty for not going. Also the amount of times i was told how much fat and calories was in a certain food was unbelievable.
So that was my boyfriend, at the beginning of summer, things got crazy and my dad was ready for beating this guy up for fucking my head up and my body. But i still toook him back.....what a fool i was. I still loved him......but that love slowly went away over the next few months.
And then we come to the weeks in october. We started back at university at the beginning of october. I started to hang around with my friend Chloe more and her boyfriend. Me and her boyfriend ( was craig at the time) began to make music together, he played guitar and i sang. After a while we became very close, and we both noticed that there was something between us. That brings us to halloween, it was that night that i had invited my friend Chloe, Craig, my sister Steph and my flatmates (including andy) round for a night of drinking and eating cake. My alcoholic punch went down very well, with Craig ending up being extremely drunk lol. This resulted in me and him doing a practice upstairs in my room, which turned out with us kissing each other. I did feel really guilty about the whole thing and suggested that we didn't do it again. So the night ended and saturday came. But Craig wanted to come round again that afternoon, so he did, and we kisses again. He explained that he couldn't stop thinking about me and that he wanted to go out with me. I was shocked but wonderfully surprised......was good.
So we were going to keep it a secret, but then sunday morning came and Craig admitted everything to his girlfriend, and my friend Chloe. He left her to go see his brother on campus, so i met up with him. We both decided that we wanted to be together and so we would split up with our partners. And so we did, though this was not an easy task. Andy continued to mess around with my head and i ended up going home to be with my family, unable to cope. After some time, i came back to uni and started to date Craig, but there were more problems to come. Andy began to play with my head even further, Craig ended up punching him one, resulting in Andy reporting him to the police. But no action was going to be taken so we were ok, or so we thought.
Then we got calls from Chloe in the middle of the night, drunken, abusive phone calls......oh the joy. Craig had to go running to sort her out, she was in a terrible state. Then i got Andy telling me how he was going to commit suicide.....and everything was all my fault.
I managed to get him to his senses eventually. Now we're talking first week of november, and Chloe and Andy met up with each other to console each other mainly. BUt when Andy returned, he told me how Craig had lied to everyone saying that i was pursuing him etc. I was gutted, i couldn't stop crying. I trusted Andy was telling the truth, as he wouldn't want to hurt me. So i called Craig telling him how upset i was and he admitted that he had told Chloe the lies so that she wouldn't get upset. But i was unsure again.....i went home again to try and see some sense out of the situation.
I returned home clear minded and decided everything would be ok. Me and Andy agreed to be friends, and we spent a couple of evenings out together. We were also supposed to be seeing Muse together. But that seemed like a long wayyyyy off. First i had to meet Craig's parents, so me, Craig and his brother troddled off down to Bradford and lo and behold Craig's brother had forgotten his keys, so we had to stay in an expensive hotel wahey graet stuff. It wouldn't be so bad if i actually HAD the money but noooo course i aint got it! Anyway we got through that and another problem surfaced.....Craig's brother began to be attracted to me and wanted me to go for a beer with him constantly. Everytime we all went out together, he got drunk and kept trying it on with me, one time he ended up in tears. It was not pretty........Craig was beginning to get worried.
But we got through all that and thought things can only get better right? No wrong, the police were looking for Craig about the fight......oh shit
We thought that maybe Andy was lying about this as he appeared to be lying about a lot of things, telling Craig how i'd slept with his brother etc. He wanted to split us up.So anyway i take Craig to muse instead and all is good. Me and Craig travel up to his friends in Sundeland as we go to watch Iron Maiden. Yesterday as we travelled back, we broke down on an A road......excellent. Craig's breakdown membership had expired, but the bastards had forgotten to tell him so that was just great. We had to wait about 4 hours for Craig's friend, so we got a little bit typsy in the local pub.....always a good idea
We eventually got home ok but the car is dead in some village somewhere lol. Just when you thought nothing could get worse.......
it does! The police called us this morning to talk to Craig, but luckily he just needed to sign some agreement that it was going to be written off. All we need is to be taken to court :s
So i reckon that's about it, there's probably stuff i've missed out.....i'll post it if i can remember, so much has happened it's hard to remember.........
that has been the activity of my life during the past 4-5 weeks or so.....yay! Let's hope things get less crazy and more boring and normal lol
